LOVE LETTER TO MY FUTURE RAPIST

 

Dear Rapist:

 

If you find me here in the woods, PLEASE don't be nice and kind and make conversation first. That's what I dread the most. I am very serious about this.   It's best for me if you break a thin sapling branch off a tree, a real thin one, a "switch". And when you come in, don't SAY anything. I'll be completely naked, just like I am now. Don't announce your name; I don't CARE who it is. I'd really rather not even know.

 

I will put the keyboard down, open my legs, and silently wait for you to do whatever you want to me.  Please whip me HARD, everywhere on my body except my face. Be particularly cruel to my cunt, but the hairy vulva lips, not the sensitive clit. I will try hard to be obedient and hold my legs open while you hurt it, but I may fail you and close them. If that happens, I apologize in advance, and request that you punish me even harder for doing that.

 

Whip me hard and fast and vicious, like you hate me and really want to hurt me. I know what I am requesting, as this has been done to me before.  I will lie still and try not to move but I would prefer if you handcuff me first so I can't block the blows. When I start to cry DON'T STOP.  If I scream involuntarily, stuff a sock in my mouth and put duct tape over it (there is some on top of my monitor).

 

Only when your arm gets tired of whipping me and I am sobbing hard and my skin is crossed with red, raised welts, then push my legs open and sexually penetrate me.  If you have whipped me nearly to unconsiouness I may be unable to, but I will try really hard to squeeze my cunt very tight for you to give you pleasure while I cry.

 

If you want to wear a rubber when you use me, I understand, though I would prefer that you might make me pregnant because of the danger.  (I will pay for the abortion after masturbating for months with one hand on my swelling belly, feeling the little rapist you have left growing inside me, consuming my body from within).

 

But at least, please, when you fuck my asshole, do it with your dick NAKED, okay, so I can feel your hot rapist's cum pumping into my guts.  It will also allow you to deposit a precious souvenir I can push out later and rub on my face, and not ever wash off.

 

You will find  KY next to the vibrator, and I would respectfully request that you put some on my anus before using it.  But if you would prefer to fuck it dry because that hurts me more, I will submit for you because after the first few thrusts there will be a little blood which will provide some lubrication and give us both more pleasure.

 

Based on my experiences in the past, I really, really don't want to ever have sex again unless I am crying during it, humiliated, and in pain. I know this sounds very, very fucked up, but it is the only kind of sex that I like. Some women are just LIKE that (I know two others) and for better or worse, I just happen to be one too.

 

It's not something I chose. If I could choose, I'd be a lesbian who just wants loving conversation and gentle caresses, and I would never again have to deal with you disgusting men.  You're all pigs.

 

But unfortunately for me, this can never happen. Nobody, anywhere, gets to choose what turns them on sexually.

 

I just am what I am, and the hell with it.

 

Love,

 

Faye